There is nothing to read into Hon. He loves you. He wants to see you. Period.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Dan, I've told him that many times including last night. I need to show him.
Good. I told my W until she was blue in the face, but, my actions didn't really change. Now, we are in the middle of Don't Ask Don't Tell and yet my actions are changing and I think generating positive results.
That said, saying it again last night was I believe still important.
I'm confident that you'll get past this pothole as well.
besides it'll be nice to be able to sit by the pool and relax with my thoughts. D will be playing with her friends and XH'll be in class and I'll have a beer or two and relax.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
You can do this! I think the big step is to realize that you need to look at yourself, and take care of yourself. And I think you hit that this morning! And it does seem that despite you "best" efforts, he wants to be around you. Think about who you are, and what you want. Relax is good!
Jen - Stop. Don't read anything into. Remember, you need to not worry about what he's doing or wanting to do right now. Your job is to worry about which of those 2 choices, YOU want for YOURSELF. What do you want to do today? Which one works for you? Don't analyze it. Don't look for hidden meaning from him.
Floyd, it was a pretty bad backslide...he's fed up and so am I.
Jeff, you're right I can do this. I think I'll stick around for a bit more. You guys are my salvation.
Amy, yes I'll stop! I want to go to the club to relax because if not I'll be just sitting here by myself feeling sorry for me. But yes I want to be next to him so I'll go to the club for ME.
((((EVERYONE)))))
Last edited by JenInVen; 08/22/0806:05 PM.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Forgive me for not posting on your threads today I have however been reading your threads....I'm not in the place to offer much of anything right now. Up until 5 minutes ago I had the intention of leaving the boards for a while but I think it's best to stick around.
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
