For the Guy with Kids and a WW 10

[hopeful4her]

I am sick of cold showers.

I don't want to be home watching tv, yet that is all I do lately.

I work and then go home. I don't even leave work to go to lunch. I usually skip.

I need to be going out, but the ones that are AVAILABLE to go out with, I shouldn't be going out with.

The weekend before, I did movie night with kat and karen here. The whole time, I was suspecting that OM was helping GBG get her new furniture. On my way into town to get the movie, I was just looking for them to pass by going the other way. I was looking and lookinf for his truck. Next day, I found out I was right.

My gut feeling has almost never failed me.

Him moving the new stuff into the apartment, puting the girls bunk beds and dressers together for them. Who knows, he may have even paid for all that crap. Dinner maybe and I know they then went swimming together. Him being her hero. The thought of that just drives me insane. Kills me. GBG and him trying to be a little family. MY family.

She has taken the kids to visit her dad in Laredo today. I told D11 to call me when they leave, but no calls from them yet. I also asked D11 yesterday if mom had gotten the stuff done for the car. She says she didn't know.

I am doing something tonight. I don't care what. Alone or whoever wants to join me.

I'm feeling a build up of anger today. Not sure why, but I am.