well I am proud to say I made it through the first part of the morning w/o texting him....
he has a commute and i have always said good morning..... giving that up.... i have to....i am not the chosen one.
i am trying to make it hour by hour with no contact.... that is how hard this is.... 19 years together...gone down the drain.... such a lonely feeling.
As much as this has hurt me... It is sick that I still want him back...it makes no sense to me.... I should hate him..yet I cant
