If I were to 'picture my dignity,' I want to put some thought into this before I write down my answer. I will go out and come back later today and give you my thoughts. Thank you, TD, for asking me to put some perspective on me. I needed that guidance.

"...you get a break to let your emotions out until you can catch up." This comment is so helpful! It takes away some of the fear and, therefore, helps me to understand part of what is taking place inside me.

"You can't put a time limit on this but you can evaluate your progress from time to time." You are so good at this TD. You always have a way of bringing me back down to earth. I picture myself floating just above the surface in my *airspace,* until you kindly point to the groud and say, "Suzanne, go here." \:\) Evaluating my progress! I need to be reminded of this from time to time, because if I don't, I begin to feel negative when, in reality, I know I have some positive thoughts too -- I can feel myself moving forward.

"Until you get your feet under you, your effectiveness will likely be limited." Isnt' THAT the truth. Maybe my effectiveness with my husband and my situation will *always* be limited, but I *can* attempt to get my feet down on the ground. Thank you, once again, for you wisdom and understanding of my sitch!

"...but what are you truly afraid of? Where is the fear coming from?" OK, these comments hit home. I cried when I read them. I walked away from the computer. I left the house. But, I came back to answer you. I typed in the question, and got some information from Yahoo. I do need to think a little bit about it before I give you an answer.

I'm going shopping for something for dinner. Maybe I'll go to the gym. When I get back, I'll put down my thoughts. I know this is not an "exercise in futility." I want to break out of this theme, and here is my opportunity to get started. Thank you for seeing some measure of possibilities in my instabilities. You are a Godsend! I'm not Arnold, but "I'll be back."

hugs,
from you know who \:\)