I'm having a rough month - three years on and it's still hard to go through the anniversary of our split (Aug 13) and our wedding anniversary (today). Plus, even though we signed our agreement back in June, XH's L is presenting it in court on Wednesday (27th), and then it has to be approved by a judge. This is just a formality, apparently, but it seems like the agony is being dragged on and on.
I was really feeling fine, but things are not good right now. I think it's the finality of everything - and the fact that there are so many "finals" - the signing of the agreement, then being served officially (that was tough, to see it in black and white: XH vs me), then the court thing (I don't have to be there), then the official certificate of D, which I guess I'll get in the mail. And all this when it's anniversary month and back to work.
I am feeling really lonely right now, alone and sad. I do not want to get back together w/ XH, but I wish I could be in a healthy, stable R with someone else. I have met quite a few guys, so that's not a problem, but no one really interests me, for various reasons.
And I do know that when I'm feeling like this, it wouldn't be the best time to start a new R! I guess I'm just looking for some thoughts on getting through this last(?) stage w/o falling into a bad depression, b/c I feel myself headed there.
Nicola
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