Jak and Mailda, The transformational power of reading and writing poetry is amazing. It's been the most effective tool that I use on my own to get me back into a happier frame of mind.
I continue to wake up at 6AM to read and write poetry for an hour. If something is stirring in me, or there is a glob of thoughts and emotions, it comes flowing out on the paper with the help of a line from a poem that resonates with me.
I'm able to articulate what's going on inside, and able to see things in a different way. I've not experienced this before with anyone or anything.
It will allow me to return to and adapt to troubling, challenging, confusing aspects of my life, rather than avoid them, because I'm stuck in a frame of reference. Of course, the most challenging aspect is my W's sleeping elsewhere, but poetry allows me to wrestle with it, rather than be poisoned by my own thoughts and emotions.
In DB terms this is Doing Something Different that will have a positve impact on the M. My W is used to me brooding, being distant, dwelling and ruminating. She gets nervous if she thinks I'm going back to those patterns.
The Hawaii trip is in two weeks. I think we're going to have a wonderful time. We're already talking about how to afford the next trip there.
I'm going to travel this weekend to my hometown for my parent's 50th anniversary. My W will stay back, as she usually does (fine with me, no pressure).
I'm going to miss dancing this weekend, but I think a respite from the M, and the weekend routine will be good.
CL
Last edited by Concerned_Listener; 08/22/0801:05 PM.
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
