Rob, To answer you, your right. I am being held hostage by me, by myself. Ya know i've been with him since I was 17 years old. We've been together so long its all I know. I think once S5 starts kindergarten, Im going to go to C for myself, I think I think some extra guidance. Wether he wants to join me is up to him.

Dr.Love.. Don't ever apologize. Just because I love the man doesn't be he's not a complete jerk and your right, That's what makes me made, that I do things for him and he acts like that, the letter told him so (didn't send it though)

Sara, thanks for the well wishes.

Saffie...Don't worry I love leos, I have a couple girlfriends that are, I actually gravitate towards them.. don't know why. Aries and leos are perfect mates.

***UPDATE***

Talk to H's father last night, They were done fushing his eyes, then were waiting for the eye dr. and if they were going to see him last night or today. He was doped up pain killers so I couldn't even talk to him.

I have such mixed emotions about everything. I am really sad that he is there and Im not, but glad his dad is. If his dad wasn't there, I would have hopped on a plane already. On the other hand, Im still mad at him (but feel guilty about that too because he's hurt)...I think im going to explode.

I called the hospital he was at this morning and he was discharged, so hopefully he got to see the eye dr. last night.

What a messed up day this is going to be. Im supposed to go out with my gf tonight, Im probably going to cancel it, Im in know frame of mind for it. Id be worrying about him the whole time, and I was supposed to talk to her about her "child's issues" and I just don't have the strength for it. I have too much going on here.

I'll update more when I find something out. He has a 2 hour time difference so its only 6:45 am there.

(((thank you all)))

Last edited by tiredandlost; 08/22/08 12:50 PM.
me: 37
H: 44
Married for 18 years this june
S7
S3
porn issues, and much more... since 7/06

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.