I'm sorry your night ended up not as you expected it will. Divorce is so hard on the kids. They are the ones that suffer the most. If only your W can see that soon.
I hear your sadness, loneliness, and despair. Please keep praying and don't give up.
Thoughts of others are tempting you now. You need to come up with a plan of how to deal with girls calling you, etc. Until then, you will continue to have those thoughts. You are keeping contact with them. It's kinda like the OM in my situation. Stop contact right now. YOu are too vunerable.
Have you told these women that you love your wife and are trying to get her back?
I don't want to be home watching tv, yet that is all I do lately.
I work and then go home. I don't even leave work to go to lunch. I usually skip.
I need to be going out, but the ones that are AVAILABLE to go out with, I shouldn't be going out with.
The weekend before, I did movie night with kat and karen here. The whole time, I was suspecting that OM was helping GBG get her new furniture. On my way into town to get the movie, I was just looking for them to pass by going the other way. I was looking and lookinf for his truck. Next day, I found out I was right.
My gut feeling has almost never failed me.
Him moving the new stuff into the apartment, puting the girls bunk beds and dressers together for them. Who knows, he may have even paid for all that crap. Dinner maybe and I know they then went swimming together. Him being her hero. The thought of that just drives me insane. Kills me. GBG and him trying to be a little family. MY family.
She has taken the kids to visit her dad in Laredo today. I told D11 to call me when they leave, but no calls from them yet. I also asked D11 yesterday if mom had gotten the stuff done for the car. She says she didn't know.
I am doing something tonight. I don't care what. Alone or whoever wants to join me.
I'm feeling a build up of anger today. Not sure why, but I am.
Last edited by hopeful4her; 08/22/0805:35 PM.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
You are mad at your wife for cheating on you and then leaving you. Of course you are mad...steaming mad. If you want to leave your marriage and give up, then you can do whatever you want, h4h. Go out with B, go out with Y, go out with the whole alphabet. It's your choice. I'm sending a prayer your way.
Next time you go to the apartment, look around and then say..."Wow you put al the furniture together by yourselve" at the same time look into her eyes.
H4H today I stopped by, after long time, to see how you are doing. It seems that unfortunately you are still struggling. I understand what you are going through - at this point it is pure pain. It is very hard to let go, I am still asking STBXW if she is REALLY SURE about the D (she is). At some point we just need to find the strength and let go. I am not say you need to give up(I am not giving up either), but we need to find happiness somewhere else. I think that if you have somebody that wants to date you, you should go for it. Just be sincere with them and GO FOR IT! Other people that went on this path told me how being with a new date cleaned their mind from the fog of the pain. The pain is still there, but you start seeing things differently. I don't know if it is true, didn't date yet, but I heard that more then once. For the kids not to have a unite family is going to suck, it is not your fault - an happier dad is better then a miserable one anyway - and if in the future you are going to connect again with W - wonderful.
