Okay so I wasn't going to post anything long tonight but here I go....Anyone wanna give me some feedback???
Soooooo...got home from work yesterday kind of late.....H was supposed to bring D home around 7:30 or 8:00, but since I didn't get home until 7:00 and wanted to spend a little some time relaxing in a long hot bath I called H to see if he could keep D until 8:30. So I call over there around 7:15 and he doesn't answer...I call D's cell and ask where Daddy is...she says he's taking a shower (not normal for him until he is getting ready to go to bed). Anyway, I say...ok have him call me when he gets out. So he calls around 7:30 and says...I'm getting ready to leave in 5 or 10 minutes. I ask him if he wouldn't mind giving me about an hour before he brings her home so I can relax in my bath. He says okay and we hang up. About 2 minutes go by and he calls back and says that when he drops her off he's just going to watch her walk to the door and not come in. I say...ok..why is that? He says...well it's getting late. I say...that's fine...you need to do whatever makes you comfortable. He says ok and we hang up.
Soooooo...he drops D off, but he DOES come in. D goes to take a shower and then to complete her homework. H and I chat and our convo turns to sex and we end up in bed. After it's over...in true form he jets out like I am a leper. As he's leaving he asks D to come down and give him a kiss goodbye. She does and I'm hoping he'll give me a kiss goodbye, but he just turns his back on me. Of course this very much hurts me...I'm good enough to have sex with, but not good enough for a kiss. Anyway, I make a hmmph sound as he's walking out and he says "what???". I say..if you don't know...I'm not gonna tell you. He says...I don't want to confuse D. I ask how would you confuse her...he says "maybe we shouldn't have sex anymore..maybe it's not a good idea....are you just having sex with me to get me back?" I say "no". He says ok and walks away.
So to be honest...at this point I feel like a whore. I feel like he was basically telling me without coming out and saying it that it's just sex and I shouldn't be putting any stock or hope in it. This hurts.
Anyway, about 10 minutes go by and the phone rings. He says I just called to tell you guys goodnight. I'm thinking you just did when you left, but I don't say that. I say...oh ok..thanks. He asks to talk to D. She tells him goodnight (again) and hands me back the phone. He's still on the phone...didn't hang up so I say "hello". He says....I had a good time with you tonight. I say I'm glad he enjoyed it. He says it was "interesting". I say "what does that mean". He says it was just interesting in a lot of ways. Don't really know how to respond so I say...well thanks...goodnight.
I am so confused by all this...is it just sex to him???
