I am on anti-depressants, and for a while took Lunesta to sleep. I don't need the sleeping pills anymore, but I would be lost without the other meds. I was on them before all this, and cannot imagine going though this without them.
While I was at the doctor with D12 yesterday, I read this article that goes a lot with your anger. It was about a young man who had been floundering in his life. He was walking the streets of LA, and nothing was going right. He continued to walk until he came to an area where he started to scream at God why? Why is my life not going well? Why am I having such a hard time?
After he was done screaming, a small voice came to his head and said, "Are you finished now? Do you feel better?" He said at that moment, his mind was clear, and he knew what he had to do. God was not angry that he questioned, but compassionate because he rid himself of the anger and then could see.
I tried a little of that today. My Catholic upbringing makes it hard for me to question, but I did ask, Why? Why? Why me? And the answer came: this has nothing to do with you. It's not about you.
The anti-depressants don't make you not feel, it just makes it easier to deal with.
(((Dan))) You are doing a great job, and the anger is so very normal. Remember, there is a thin line between love and hate.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
