You are stronger than you think. You do need to talk to an attorney about all of this. Someone experienced in divorce, child support, etc., can help you make some sense of this. Protect yourself and your kids first. It's only over when you say it is, and if it's now, so be it. But, like snodderly says, don't do anything to hastily. Breathe. Prepare. Make a list of questions and seek legal help.
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Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12