God give me the patience and the strength...6

[theotherhalf]

I didn't see or hear from H yesterday and this morning I am missing him terribly. It is what it is I know...

I worked in the basement last night when I got home. Got alot done but still alot to do. A little at a time and I'll get it done. Changed D17's headlight too. Pretty proud about that. Had a tough time but I got it done and it works.

Otherwise it was a pretty quiet evening. Today the girls go back to school. Neither of them are too excited. But it will be good to get back into the groove of things.

Well for me it's off to another boring day at work. GOSH I wish it would pick up soon. The monotiny is driving me crazy!! I need to be busy.

Have a great day all!!

TOH

[theotherhalf]

My L called today...Prosecuting Attorney is proposing...a lesser charge and a deffered sentance. That means no jail and probation for up to 3 years. I guess OW's plea from the heart did me some good. If I get into no trouble during probation the charge will be wiped clean from my record. Hurray for me and my girls!!! Nothing is in stone yet and I'll still have to go in front of a judge and he will have the final say. Lot's of litttle stuff to work out as well. But at least FINALLY some good news in my life.

H still has not got information for new insurance for us. Today I TM him "insurance info???" Haven't heard from him.

I don't want to tell him yet about legal stuff either I am afraid of what his reaction will be. He may just see her as the "savior" because of what she did to keep me from going to jail.

Got home tonight and was going to mow... the belt was off so tore it apart and got it back on. It fell off right away again. So now, I need H's mower. I need his checks for the week. DAMB!!! I do not want to call him, but really I have no choice. Well I call and guess what? He doesn't answer. Imagine that!

So not only did I REALLY REALLY not want to call but when I do he's not available. Nice. I just left a message, "Hi, I really didn't want to call and bother you but I really need to talk to you about a couple of things, so please call as soon as you get a chance. Thanks"

What a day!

[theotherhalf]

How's come no one commented on what all went on between H and I over the weekend. No opinions of what he's up to. No 2x4's for me. Really I think I handled things pretty well, but? I'm curious as to what some would say about him asking me to BIL's. Initiating the fire here. Him climbing into bed with me. Staying the next day till 10pm. Anyone???

[theotherhalf]

Someone please explain?!?!?

I called H about mower and checks and stuff. We got that all discussed and I told him about call from L today. He was relieved. He said now maybe he can stop feeling like sh*t! He said it was him that put me there and he was sorry. I said no you didn't well you did but I am my own person and I did what I did on my own. He said "no my fault and I would have done the same damb thing only probably worse".

Any way we talked about his work. My work. (he actually asked how it was) We talked about investing his 401 into this new company he is working for. We talked about how we both have thought about going to church. We talked about alot of stuff.

My question is this...
We talked a little about OW. He said he has not talked to her. "well I guess she called the other night and left a VM that it was her D's B-day, so he called her to wish her a happy B-day" I said " what, you called HER D?" "ya" I said, "oh H, you missed your own D's b-day but you'll call hers?" he said, " i didn't miss my D's " I said, "you missed N14's". he of course didn't remember and I said, "never mind, it doesn't matter" and we dropped the subject.

How can he talk so freely to me about OW and her girls. The other day he told me their names.

WTH?!?!?!?

[WCW]

toh, I am so relieved about the good news on your legal stuff! I hope it all goes the easy route for you on that.

About the weekend and what's current with you and H, IMO it's the same old same old cycle.

[MidwesternGirl]

just remember, probation is not always a piece of cake. there are many rules to follow. just stay out of trouble and be very thankful that you may get a lesser charge and probation and then have it wiped clean.

[a new 2moro]

FOR ANSWERS JUST READ YOUR OLD THREADS....REALLY EVERYTHING IS THERE. SAME OLE SAME OLE

[theotherhalf]

Yes...but...this time it's different...you'll see...i think...maybe your right...we'll see:(

for one, now, I'm not initiating a d*mb thing.

[Bworl]

for one, now, I'm not initiating a d*mb thing

Well, I'll say you're not initiating quite as vigorously as you did in the past. And to be honest, I long ago realized that you were going to play this out the way you felt best anyway.

You might find some interesting results by pulling back from him a little bit at a time. The problem is, you are so drawn to being with him, you find it almost impossible to avoid him all together. I would like to see, just once, what would happen if you really did shut him down for an extended period of time.

Good news about your case. Still won't be a wonderful experience, but it beats spending time behind bars. I hope the lingering threat of the past couple months will be something you don't soon forget.

As for the past weekend, I was a bit appalled that you openly asked if no one was going to respond. I almost felt like you were asking to be criticized.

Make your decisions, stand behind them. If you're comfortable with them, that's all that really matters in the end.

As for the OW and her daughters names, I don't find it surprising at all. He has been open with you concerning his relationship with you, even telling you that it could possibly continue. You have accepted those proclamations without recourse, so why would he fear sharing that he had wished her daughter a happy birthday?

Less is more. As in contact.

Make him miss you.

Make him wonder about YOUR plans for the future.


Blessings,

Bill

[theotherhalf]

not criticized Bill, expected to be yes, but I honestly wanted to hear opinions about the events. Him suggesting the fire here, Him crawling into bed with me, him choosing to stay the next day till night.

Honestly Bill i have not initiated ANY contact for over 2 weeks, then it was our annv (the 9th) and nothing from me the week before that. I think I have called him twice in that period and it was for business only and short.

I am still shocked about the girls. Not like H. And really he has not been open about their R. I know nothing about it. He has aswered a couple of questions. He has said that it may continue he doesn't know. But really that is all. The rest is totally in the dark to me.

"Make him wonder about YOUR plans for the future."
that's the hard part for me...for one, I really have no idea, for two I wear my heart and feelings on my sleeve with him.