I don't have much time to post but wanted to say that it might be worth you posting in Newcomers as a newbie- there's a lot of support there. Also, listen to Puppy- he's a master DBer and gives great advice.
There's always a chance. Read the success stories at the top of the forum list. In the meantime, take a deep breath. Have you made a list of goals as recommended in DR? It's good that you're implementing the LRT. Keep posting- sometimes the boards are slow but if you post and post on other people's threads you'll get great advice.
One person you might want to check is transformer in Newcomers. Also Julia and istherehope in Separated (similar ages H's, although no OW in their situations).
