I know your right, I just don't think i Can do it. Im a very sensative person and I get on the defense really easily. On top of all the stresses we are going through right now, the one person I thought I could depend on would be him, and its just not so.
I did this to myself. I blindly keep on going on like things are going to change and they just aren't. being a SAHM makes it 10 times harder.
I think he has other issues he's just not dealing with, and I certainly don't know what to make of it.
Hey he will be in Ohio in September, maybe you can "smack him out of it"...
Oh, Dr. I forgot to answer you, he is in Utah.
I did start writing a letter to him, and sara would not approve, its just a bunch of emotions that I had to get out, I may or may not send it. at this point I don't think I have anything to lose. Im sick of Pussyfooting around issues with him to make sur I don't scare him away, but enough is enough. He's going to have to swallow hard on this one. The worst he could do is leave me. I don't care anymore.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
