Help me Act AS IF, Part 7: The Separation

[newnamenewlife]

Thanks. I hope I feel better because right now I'm just a total mess. I can't stop remembering the many many ways H told me "I don't love you."

I feel like I will never get over that. It's the worst thing that has ever happened to me--to lose the love I believed in for so many years, to be told it was a lie. I just don't know what to do. I can distract myself and I know my life will go on and I won't always feel as horrible, but I will never, ever erase those words--and the fact of H no longer loving me--from my memory. I can't bear that I have to live with that for the rest of my life.

Plus, last night I was at a friend's house and we went on a dating website just for fun and all the men seemed ugly or stupid or idiotic, or all three. As angry as I feel toward H right now, I can't imagine I will ever meet someone as smart and funny, who made me laugh as hard and who got my sense of humor too. I just can't stand it.