Well the other night my W called me about a financial problem. She went on about what to do about it. Then she said that life really sucked right now. I just about went off on her, but controlled myself. Maybe I should have just let loose on her and see what kind of reaction that got.
I talked to her again yesterday when I was driving through town. Basically it came down to she is going to have to sell the car she loves so much and get something cheaper. I guess some reality about this is starting to set in. She called last night but I was already in bed, so I guess I will call her later.
I was talking with a friend I have known all my life last night. He is of the she is seeing someone else so divorce her. Of course he has been divorced twice and kind of bitter. It is tempting, but I don't think I am at that point yet.
Funny how little trigger emotions. Happened earlier today. Just got really sad and heartbroken again. I have been more down lately, not sure if there is a good reason for it. It must just be a cycle that comes and goes.
I keep thinking about what you said puppy about taking a harder line. My biggest thing is my W has some real abandonment issues. It is a fine line not to cross into her issues and her perception of people and events that I am giving up on her. To many people already have. If that happens she will blame herself and would probably resign herself to that fact as "normal". She may just give up at that point. Not really sure though. I suppose that could be one of the reason I have been down lately. Trying to find some sort of balance. I know it can't stay this way anymore.
A warrior does not give up on what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
