I'm not as strong today as I was yesterday, but I' still ok. Yesterday we spoke a bit about "life after D", H didn't want to speak about D, I asked him who's going to take pets, H said we can take turns, anyway we're going to work it out. At first he intended to sleeop on the sofa but then he came to our bed and the result was sleepless night for me, I just kept watching him in his sleep, wondering I'm going to forget him and move on EVER. Scary thought, isn't it? I got up very early and went for a swim. Stayed there as long as I could, I really didn't feel like going home. When I finally got back, he was talking to D17 about her college and he was a bit of an alien, rather unpleasant, unlike yesterday, when he got teary eyes for a moment (when I told him that it's going to be hard for me to live in the same town as him). I nearly fainted when I got home because of the hit (awfully hot here!), lack of sleep and an AD pill I've taken. H half carried me into our bedroom and was fussing around until I got better. I hate such moments and H seems to enjoy them - sometimes I think he missed his real calling, he'd make a wonderful male nurse!
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I assume you will carry on with your plan to take D to college and leave H to pack up everything?
I'm going through with my plan, Jen.
I'm trying hard to let go and detach but H doesn't make it easier for me. Yesterday he's told me: when you walked through the door I realized i've forgotten how beautiful you are (in 2 months!!! What's wrong with his memory?!). Later in bed he tried to hug me and I've told him to move away. I'm sure he didn't try to initiate though, just being NICE, LOL.
H is here and I have to go,
love you my friends, talk to you later, ((((((hugs))))))
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
