Is there a glimmer of hope for I'mstillhopeful ?

[I'mstillhopeful]

I haven't really heard from H since Sunday when he e-mailed to say that the garden was in good shape. He had come into the house and saw some evidence that I have been indeed GLA. I hadn't staged it that way since I was certain I would be back after only a few days.

I have not been lonely since he has been gone although I have missed him and missed our rituals and routines. I really feel as if I will be just fine should he never return. I've said it before but if he wanted to work on our M he would have to convince me that he would be willing to put in the effort. Have I dropped the rope? Have I detached? I do know that I won't be so strong when I learn at some point that he has married the OW.

Re-reading my previous journal entries I see that he is trying to tie up loose ends, he is being kind to my parents, and, is probably getting ready to close the door on our part in his life. It makes me sad, however, in some ways, it sets me free.