hi everyone, i have not been here for about 4 mos. my h and i have been back together for 5 mos. after his 1 year affair. I still have alot of hurt and anger and trust issues with him. especially because he still looks at other women and I feel if he had remorse for what he had done he wouldnt do that. some times i look at him and get so disgusted with what he did to me for so long. i want to let the past go but i dont trust him and im afraid of getting hurt again. He is making alot of money with his business and I think it has changed him for the worse, he has a huge ego. i feel like i cant compete with these younger women and it bothers me, even though i stay in good shape. m-47 h-50 son-14 married- 20 yrs.
