Argh, still no word from the head hunter on the job. I hate to wait.
Because the kids have started school, W and I are playing musical responsible adults. She didn't work today so, I took the kids to school. How strange is this, the elementary school kids have to be at school at 0800 while the middle school doesn't actually start until 0840. Anyway, W picked the kids up after school and watched them until I got home. She was still at the house when I arrived. We talked a little bit about the kids and the paperwork and homework etc. Then, as she was leaving, I was hoping for a hug so I positioned myself near where she would have to walk, but, no bite. So, then she stopped next to the car and I took a step closer and broke the barrier of her personal space and she stepped back and seemed a little uncomfortable. That sucked. I know I need to not read into what happened, it's just hard sometimes. In fact, this whole thing is hard.
W left me a voice mail message asking if I had sent the forms in requesting copies of the kids' shot records for school and she did something different. In her voice mail message she said "... you got the papers while we were at the pediatricians to request their shot records. and I er, I'd be amazed, I mean it would be great if you had sent those in, but, we need to get those taken care of ...."
OH MY!! I MEAN, WHO IS THIS PERSON AND WHAT HAVE THEY DONE WITH MY WIFE? See the underlined part? That is very definitely a different behavior. When I add this little change to how on Sunday we managed to not be angry with each other even though we were yelling at each other through the phone, I start to think that it may be possible for her to change and grow.
Of course, there is a part of me that is scared S**Tless that she has flushed me out of her mind and this is just "let's be friendly because we have the rest of our lives dealing with each other because of the kids", while another part of me is quietly hopeful. I don't suppose much good comes from thinking the first way so, I'll have to be optimistic and think the second way.
