aiming for a new me 11

[kissak]

You know Dar, I think I just cant send my H a letter yet, letting him go....basically because I feel like to me at this point, it might still be a game plan to me....like I would be hoping to would make him come back....I have to stop thinking that way...I think in the letter I wrote, I was having a hard time because I honestly werent believing what I was saying. "that I was ready to let him go" Am I? Im just not sure. Its like my Head says yes, but my heart says no. Im afraid of the future really. Im afraid the the OW thinking she won....Im just afraid. But I have figure that out, now I just have to work on it some. Get my heart to the same place my head is.