Treese, I'm sorry you are still down a bit. Sometimes it helps to voice your concerns to your h. That's okay, but be careful that you don't do this every time you see or talk to him. If you do, he will definitely avoid coming around when you are there.
Remember, you are not his mother and you have no control over what he says, thinks or does. You only have control over yourself. In his eyes, you are an authority figure who is always pointing out what he does or doesn't do (just like a mother or a father would do).
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.