WTF? You need to start respecting yourself, not your H. I know it's hard to do when you haven't done it for awhile, but start. Hold your relationships to a higher standard. If he's willing to make the effort to meet that standard, great. But otherwise, forget it.
You deserve what you want.
Ouch. I don't really know how to interpret this...
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence