You deal with this the way you feel best and what works for you. If you want to keep some pictures of your H, then so be it. He was a a part of your life. You created memories together.
Yes, you will have meltdowns and that is normal.
You will get stronger each and everyday.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19