Thank you for all your support. I'm doing my best to take one day at a time. I still have my meltdowns, I still miss my H so bad I can't hardly stand it at times. Right now I really can't see my future without him but right now I don't know what the future holds.
I know God does have a plan for me, what I don't know just yet but I'm trying to lean on Him.
Hi Nit, what have you done today, anything made you smile? Can I ask if you still have lots of your x husbands things about or photo's etc. It may help if you box these things up if you have. I am not saying throw them out just put them out of sight. It really helps. Make your place more yours. Got any hobbies -sorry if I asked this already that you can get involved in.
Non of us know what the future holds,with or without a h. We can think we do and we can plan for it but sometimes bad things happen to good people and our plans go out the window. I know you are finding this really hard and the wedding sent you into a downward spiral but you have to accept this and slowly step by step hour by hour day by day move away from the sadness.
Make some goals,what do you want or how do you plan to get out of this funk. Are you having C? Taking AD's I am not an advocate but I do know they help loads of people. Take care.
Well, all the pictures of my H are in boxes. There are still some on the computer but I just try not to look at those right now. I'm cleaning out the closets now & getting ready to move his things that he left here in the attic. I did hang some pictures yesterday, where I wanted them so I'm trying to make it my own.
I've been on AD's since Jan. I'm sure it is helping some, but you are right the wedding threw me. I'm trying to move ahead but part of me just can't believe I will never see him again. All these years we have been so close & we both thought we were meant to be together, so it's hard for me to see right now that we won't ever be together again.
I'm working on getting out of the funk but it's just going to take time, I know. I miss the man I married & not what he became this past year. I know that man is in there somewhere, everything just happened so quickly, there was no time for me to deal with it. I was thrown in & never got a chance to get up & realize what happened.
Hi nlt, I know how hard it is to get H out of your mind. Even after over three years I miss my old H very much and find it still so hard not to think of him often.
I hope that you will hear about your job soon. (((HUGS)))
You deal with this the way you feel best and what works for you. If you want to keep some pictures of your H, then so be it. He was a a part of your life. You created memories together.
Yes, you will have meltdowns and that is normal.
You will get stronger each and everyday.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Thank you all so much!! Just a year ago I thought things were fine with my H & I, now I can't believe we are D & he is M again!!!
Part of me feels like it's just not over, I could be totally wrong but I still can't imagine being without him.
I've been cleaning out closets & found some cards he gave me, he always wrote such beautiful things to me. One of the last Valentine card I got from him, he wrote "Thank you for being here for me, I cannot imagine my life without you" That was just a couple of years ago!!!
I'm doing my best. I do hope I hear from that job, I really think that would help me a lot b/c I am getting concerned about the money. Not so much that I can't make it on the alimony he gives me but I'm going to have to pay taxes on that so, plus all the part time work I've been doing is contract labor & I'll have to pay taxes on that also. That will hurt! Normally I put money back for that but I've been having to live on it. It's starting to stress me some, but I've got to leave it in God's hands. As with my H, I have to turn him over to God.
I promise, I'm trying! I really want to thank you again for your support, you make me feel better!!!
Well, nothing new for me. I have been cleaning out closets & putting H's things in the attic, or getting ready to do that.
I still miss him & get sick when I think about him with OW, but some reason I feel more at peace & feel that I haven't seen the last of him. I could be totally wrong about this but it's what I'm feeling right now. So, I just have to go with that & keep praying.
glad to hear you are doing better today. it is hard but you will be fine.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
N Yes you will be fine you are strong and doing all the right things for your healing asfor our H,well all I can say is minelooks terrible depressed lost and not happy so they do not seem to find the bliss they are looking for I have a neighbor now a woman thinking about leaving her H Same story same script she also looks terribly thin and confused she has OM the answers are within and our Spouses will never find it in another person peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
