Not feeling ready for a date doesn't make you pathetic at all. I am not ready for real serious relationship or anything like that. But going out with someone of the opposite sex for Chinese and a movie was really good for my PMA. Realizing that men who aren't my former H, find me attractive is a wonderful feeling.
I started school on Monday and it has been terrible. Things have changed and there are issues. I find that when I have had bad days, it makes being divorced more difficult for me. I miss having my husband to talk to me about my day and reassure me that everything is going to get better. I miss having him to cuddle with and fix me diner because I am too stressed out. Instead I come home to an empty house and as a result of everything that is going on, I feel empty as well. I have had a difficult past few days emotionally.
Having to tell people that I am divorced is painful as well. People expect you to be happy about it. I am not happy at all. I didn't want it, but was forced to do it.
My exh has been coming over and starting to get some of his stuff. I have learned that his new apartment is near my house (oh joy). Also he is off again with the OW and wanted to know how he could go about getting a date!?!?! Huh????
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
