The pain of this D is getting to me again. More dreams about stbx and if things 'worked out' and were just fine again. A romantic dream last night even. Help. I know that's not reality, but my heart is feeling broken- feeling the sadness and the stress of all this.. Stbx flat out told me he thought it was stupid if people got back together after a D was filed about a month ago before I left. There may be OW, I don't know. I'm halfway across the country, I know there's no basis for any piecing to happen. Only the 'dreams'. In my case, with hardly no contact w. stbx, I guess I am propelled to reflect on it this way. I know it's a 'clean break', but it still isn't easy nonetheless. 14 yrs w. stbx isn't easy to wash away. I am hopeful about my new life once it takes shape/form. Right now I'm in limbo land hoping for jobs to come through so that I can get a place of my own. Low day today. Ok- I'm ready to start serving drinks- what would you like? The bar's open!
Last edited by New Path RJ; 08/20/0807:29 PM.
Me 40 H 39 2nd M- 6 months No kids Previous D, 1st M DBer from 2003
