I sure don't like the "can't have" part. I'm sure it's because I'm still emotionally vested in my W. My love for her has always been unconditional. Breaking that is very hard.
Knowing that I really worked to save everything is important. Not just for me but I think my kids will see it when they are older and "know".
The cycles are hard to deal with, especially with the other stresses in my life where I normally would have had her support.
My W is/was sceptical about the changes I've made for myself. But I think that I've been consistant with most and she has accepted them. I do think that the novelty has worn off some so we'll see where things lead. Last night my W did ask me about some changes and if I was still doing them. I am and she was pleased/surprised?
I don't have any expectations for my changes but I like them for myself. I would though like to find more. Again we'll see.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
