I haven't posted in some time; just want you all to know I'm still following your post It's been really busy around the house. I try to stop in on a daily basis and check out a couple of post to see what everyone is up to.
I've learned a lot from everyone here and I pray for everyone including my stbx W. Thank you all so much for checking in on me, for being there for me when I was down. I'm so lucky to have found this site, I don't know in what shape I would have been in going through all this alone, I really appreciate everyone's input Karen, Kat, Cat, H4H, Puppy, Sara, lwb, whatdidido, and everyone else who stop by to kick my butt and say hey GAL
Kids first day of school, S5 kindergarten, D6,D6 are 1st grade and D9 is in 4th all dressed up in their Catholic school uniforms, they looked great, I got all the kids up, got them dressed, we made all the beds, I got them fed and ready to go, then W swoops in and takes them to school. This will go on until Sept 2nd, when W starts working full time at the bar and the kids start after school program. Then, I'll take them and pick them up everyday. Won't have to see W hardly at all
When this happens, W is going to be an emotionally wreck, she just called to tell me that she cried when she dropped the kids off for school, began to cry on the phone, said she thinks her hormones are all screwed up. I wanted to say "Thats not all that's screwed up" but I didn't
It's going to be hard for me to work on myself GAL stuff, so much work to do, house cleaning, laundry, feeding the kids, making time for the kids and me to have fun together, homework is coming, baths, soccer practice and on and on and on. I don't know how I will ever meet anyone. I'm such a shy person, especially around women, I'm very polite and old fashioned and as you all know a stubborn old German. Not a very good combination for meeting women (busy and shy)
W calls again, tells me she is done grocery shopping, bought a bunch of stuff for the kids snacks for school and stuff for breakfast. I told her she didn't have to do that, she said she wanted to and that they were her kids also. I could hear her beginning to get emotional again, so I said I had to go.
Asking God for direction in my life, want to move on with my life but haven't let go of W completely yet. Have a lot going on between now and Christmas
Confused and Lonely in St. Louis
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
but I didn't
