I am sorry!!!! You sound so strong though. I am so proud of the way you have handled it. Your H is still in a fog. His "moment of clarity" is not all that clear. I really liked FG's post and can apply it to my own sitch. Stella, you are in my prayers.
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"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz