Haven't seen you posting here for a while? How are things?
I have been where you are. I relied heavily on one or two good friends to literally come drag me out of my house and take me out, to their house, to an art gallery, shopping, a car drive, for coffee just to talk, etc.
I gave them permission to come do what was in my best interest when I couldn't see it. I trusted them to see it and not necessarily call me on it & kick my a$$, just recognize it, be gentle with me, and help me move along.
It took weeks for me to not have that feeling on an almost daily basis. It does get better, it has gotten better. Right now I can feel my anxiety level raising for various reasons. I know "I" need to take control of some of the things in my life that are causing that anxiety and either deal with them or let them go.
MY Counselor helped(s) a great deal.. There were weeks that I was in to see her 2times a week with a phone call thrown in for good measure. I have not been back since before I left for vacation & I can tell I need a 'tune-up'.
Take advantage of those that love & support you. Ask for their help, be specific in what you want them to do for you.
Be gentle with yourself, it's ok to feel these things, it's ok to wonder, and be despairing, it's ok to hurt, it's ok to be confused, it's ok to just be you. This is you today, it will be different tomorrow, if you let be.
Peace Bridge
Divorced 03/2010 Mom to two amazing kids
Taking the road less traveled because those encountered on the way may be just as unique.
