My sitch is slightly different whereby my W refuses to acknowledge openly that she has done anything wrong, doesn't want to talk about the A and doesn't want any form of C, IC or MC. She just wants to carry on as if nothing has happened. So my negative thoughts stem from her apparent lack of remorse. I think if W had apologised or attended MC I wouldn't feel so bad, but if she did those things it would mean talking about things which she is trying to forget.
I think if she apologised or attended MC I wouldn't feel as bad, but I can't see those happening so I have to deal with the hand I have been dealt. But in saying all of that, W is doing many non verbal things which help to suppress my negative feelings and show we are moving forward together in the right direction.