Well I got to see my W tonight, she came by to drop off her ring so that I can take our rings in to have them checked and cleaned. I noticed that hers has some of the white gold chipping off so I am going to leave them with the jeweler and have them both re-coated, warranty will cover this. She gave me her old phone I ask if she had a new number and if I could have it, she said that she wasn't ready yet. She didn't want to keep the old phone even if I payed the bill, but none of this worries me that much. I told her when I get her ring cleaned if I could give her a call she said to hang on to it for a while, I said I would rather not can I bring it buy your work, she said that would be ok. I talked to our counselor about three points I wanted to mention to her which I did. They are 1. I mentioned to you in an email the other day about giving things time. 2. If she could start to grow trust in me. 3. I know she is very busy with working two jobs and going to school and that Sunday was probably her lightest day, but if she could find time to get back into church. Well I got ripped for the church comment, I just shut my mouth, my head hung low, and let her talk, at that point nothing I could say would help but only make things worse so I apologized and she forgave me still upset but said I crossed the line with that one. I should have spent more time thinking about that church comment from her perspective before mention it. I did learn a lot from it though. On the up side she did say that she has a good heart and that GOD WAS THE ONLY WAY FOR HER. She also mentioned that she was already considering church and that she was trying to figure if morning or evenings were better. All in all from what I saw and heard tonight, I can really tell that my prayers and the other people praying for us are having an impact on her in a good way, I feel confident in things to come, but I can till it is going to be a long time coming.
I was working on trying to plan for school in the spring and my W thinks I should. I get the feeling that she would have more appreciation and respect for me if she sees me doing something productive like that in my life. I wonder if it would look attractive to her. I'm thinking about selling my jetski to use the money for school. I may even move to an apt. for cheaper rent, that is just a thought.
Anyway we talked for just a little bit, but the whole time I just kept think how beautiful she looked. So I sent her an email stating: Thank you for coming by it was nice to see you. I didn't say a whole lot while we talked but I just kept thinking how beautiful you looked. I am very very proud of you. Stephen.
