Don’t ever let me wine about pain again because mine does not compare to hers. She was mad when she got here; we talked a bit on the way to dinner. She is mad I turned her parents against her. I calmly said that is their own issue and they came to me. Lots more about me destroying.

Dinner was 40 mins. She was sobbing, shaking and quivering the entire time; I tried hard to be her friend, and even talked about work and other stuff to change the subject. She just sat there tearing a piece of bread into a million bits. After I paid she stormed out, and everyone looked at me as if i had just broken up with her.

In the car a talk a bit about nothing till she said I asked you to shut up don't make me be mean. I said ok but i had some stuff to give her at my house. We got there and I went in to get a box of stuff she had left there last time. I came out and she had thrown a few things of mine from her car into the street. i put the box in her car then she slammed and locked the door. I stood there and she rolled the window down, I said "I wish we did not leave it this was” she peeled out.

She went the wrong way so peeled back. I was standing in the street, so she stopped. I asked for my garage door opener. she gave it to me and again had the most painful look i had ever seen. I said very quietly “happy anniversary”. she said yeah it was f!@#ing great and peeled off.


Weather I have destroyed her as she claims or her own guilt and shame have I am not sure, but it is not healthy for us to see each other right now. So it time for a vacation from this. I will return anything she sends me but unless it’s important i am not starting any communication till I get back from the big easy.

I no longer feel pain or hurt about this; except for the pain I feel that she is hurting soooooooo bad. All I want is for her to be happy. I can not give her that she has to make it happen. What ever she decides to do I will support. I am now her friend completely. Her H is gone for a good while and its better this way.


still an opertunity to be courageous and trusting, by standing back and letting her fly for a change.


Me 27, W26
T-12 M-4
SEP 4/29/08
Holding
250 miles
Awaiting
Support
Current