I miss her already, but I am thankful she is at peace. She died in my dad's arms. He was rubbing her back because she was having difficulty breathing.
God give me strength.
Had to take my daughter to her tennis tournament this morning. I did not want to tell the kids yet. Ex was there taking pictures. I acted pretty much as if... because that is how I felt.
After the tournament my ex called me while I was driving home inquiring about my mom. I told him. He was shocked and told me he was "there for me". I made him repeat that because I was not sure I heard him correctly. I told him I appreciated that. We cried and we agreed to tell the kids together about the news tonight. He asked me where the funeral was going to be.
I met my father and my 2 brothers at my dad's house to go to the funeral home. We made all the arrangements. It was emotionally draining. As we left the funeral home, my ex pulled up in his car, got out and hugged my Dad and my brothers. It was so unexpected and I was speechless. I told him that he was welcome to participate in all the massess and services and dinners. He said he did not want to intrude. I told him he would not be.
My family all got to my Dad's house and we decided to ask him to be a pallbearer. I texted my ex and asked him per request of my family to be a pallbearer. He accepted.
My family all said that he looked so madly in love with me.
My mother loved him.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
