In reading your threads, you absolutely do it with your H...kind of with your kids, too. And, seeing the multiple times you referred to the earlier posts in a negative way to other people, you are doing it here, too.
I wasn't going to post a reply, but can't let this go. I do not like playing the victim. You do not know me well enough to say that. You have no way to know how I've lived my life and how I've dealt publicly with what is going on with me. Certainly not from reading a few of my posts. And, I do not portray myself as a victim to my kids in any way. There is absolutely no way you can know how I present myself to my children, and I am offended by this statement. My kids are concerned about me because they know the last 2 years have been hard on me----no matter how hard I try to hide it. They know that I cry a lot----even though I do my best to not cry in front of them. Actually, I don't know that I ever have. When I said I should have waited and talked to my kids about the phone calls, I in no way, and NEVER would have told them it makes me feel like I'm alone. I have always done my best to hold myself together for them. I always tell them to have a good time with their father, and have done my best to help them deal with H's mood swings and unpredictable MLC behavior and comments. Above all else they are the most important part of my life. Their father and relationship with their father is as equally important in their lives as I am, and it always will be. I will continue to make that clear to them, and to H----no matter what is going on between us, they need us both and will always have us both. It has to be that way.
I think we have both misunderstood each other and have taken the written word in the wrong way. My response about being "attacked" was most likely written during a very emotional state-----and here of all places I hope that I don't have to think out every word that I type and make sure I don't word things the wrong way. You may not have seen what was written to me as an "attack" but you have know way of knowing how I feel or how it makes me feel.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
