Treese, I hope you are doing okay this week. People have been posting to you.
BTW, in answer to your earlier question...no, I'm not a therapist. I work in the human resources field.
I hope the week is going well for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.