sorry- we cross posted. I wouldn't have submitted that last post had I read yours.
I understand you are in pain. I would never want to contribute to that.
Keep posting if it helps you. Just please don't mock the people that try to help. My style will work for someone else... I accept that you are not one of them. I do sincerely wish you the best.
You'll get through this. We all manage to, somehow.
