I haven't posted to you in a while.....mainly because I don't think you were interested in anything I said to you. This culmination of events......this 'car crash'....has been so obvious for some time now.
I agree with Puppy. Whatever you say about giving up the drink...and your ability to do so...I still think you need help. Even alcoholics can start and stop- once an alcoholic ALWAYS an alcoholic. I feel so sorry for what your children are going through. I saw MY father, (another over achiever), do much the same. Whilst I love him greatly, he screwed up my mother's life and he damaged both my sister and myself by his actions. My mother never went off with another man but I wish she had gone and found happiness elsewhere. Having said that she is nowhere near as 'flaky' as your W seems to be from your descriptions.
You often complain that your W doesn't support you. I agree that when we marry we hope that we will marry someone who will be of support during the bad times. But you W sounds weak and not strong enough to be able to give you the support you seem to think you are entitled to. And yet even knowing that you don't seem to be able to call it a day. You appear to be addicted to het also; another thing that is toxic too you. See a theme here Frank?
You need to sit back and take a long hard look at things because much of your life seems out of kilter- you seem to be a man prone to addiction and extreme. You stumble from one crisis to another - where is the moderation in your life? The balance?
I have followed your threads on and off and one thing that always shouts out at me is that you say over and over again that you are a good man.....but it never feels like you believe it, Believe in yourself Frank - please. Others near you at home might start to then .
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
