Thinking of biting the bullet

[ACJ]

It's my son's birthday today. He is 16. I should be celebrating with him but I'm not. Three weeks ago I asked him what the plans were for his birthday and he said he didn't know he would keep me informed. Only yesterday did I find out. H took him out for lunch. He appeared here at 4pm to collect his present. I had texted him earlier but he didn't respond. It is now 5pm and he is gone. H is apparently taking him to the theatre this evening. He graced me with his presence for 45 mins. He could tell something was wrong so when he asked I was honest and told him that I was disappointed that he was spending the whole day with H. I reminded him that I am his mum and his only reply was he is my dad.

My present to him was an iPod. I couldn't really afford it but got him one anyway as that is what I had promised him before I lost all the money to H. H came up trupms (in S16s eyes only). He bought him a portable hard drive (not that he has his own computer) and then apparently his 'biggest and best present' was a voucher for a bungee jump. I am mortified. How can H be so irresponsible? It wasn't even what S16 asked for. He asked for a new mobile phone (from H).

I'm not sure I can take anymore hurt from my own flesh and blood. This really is too much to bear.