You are a kind hearted, selfless man who loves his wife. To act anything less than loving feels wrong to you. Of course it does. But. think of it this way.....would you keep giving cookies to a diabetic because it makes them feel good (and they even feel love toward you because of it) even though you know it could kill them? Just because you love her, doesn't mean you should support her when she makes a decision that affects her and her family negatively. You are the clear headed one right now.