I have been where you are. We all have. In the beginning it is the hardest. The pain is raw, and new, and fresh. The WAS doesn't seem to want to budge. They seem content with their "new life". And for now, they are.
They all try to blame us for everything. Its a way of coping for them, so they don't feel so guilty.
I have to tell you, that when I first came here, even then I thought my H was different, that all these signs and "symptoms" were not what he was doing, that he was really done. But the more I have gotten to know people, the more I have read, the more I realized that he is just typical of someone who is lost right now. Just like your W.
She is exhibiting CLASSIC symptoms, Hun, and it all depends on how you play it now. DR does work. I have read other books. I have seen a C. I have started to become the best person I can be, so that in the chance that H and I do reconcile, I can be the best W to him. But it has also taken time. It's been almost a year. I have had Jeff, Michelle, Mishka, Amy, Jen, Julia drag me off the floor when I have been down so low I don't feel like I can get up. I am sure that is where you are at now.
Oh Grant, it does get easier. We all know your pain. And we have all fallen off the DB wagon, and all you need to do is climb back on again. Start with some goals for yourself, and give your brain a rest.
(((Grant)))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
