You are addicted to the bb. It has nothing to do with DB. You need to get back to the counsellor but I'd recomend a new one. The one you see sounds like a "play therapist". It is obvious from your posts and your behaviour that you are beyond anything that journalling can help. And this bb is NOT for journalling - there are blogs all over the Internet for that. You have lashed out and offended nearly every person here on the board. You tell us you are leaving but you don't stay away. You can't - you enjoy the attention of the guys too much. Even No Hill continues to write to you despite the nasty you inflicted on him a few months back.
No vacation is going to fix you, AG, not at this point. You are too messed up.
