I'm six months down the line and i' in a worse state than you.
That urge to speak to W about R is absolutely huge. I feel myself resisting all the time. I'm lucky / unlucky enough to see my w frequently.
The emotional thing is bloody awful. I'm pretty much all over the place all the time. started waking up in the middle of the night with this feeling of not being able to cope on my own. The the day is fine and the night starts again.
Not so much a roller coaster as a flat line.
I know what you mean about morning the family side of things. I see my S8 and feel awfull that i let things get to this state.
Surreal is a good word - spent the last few months thinking surreal
