Well, as the rollercoaster continues, again seem to be in a positive space. My gosh, this yo-yoing just kills me.
So today was D6's first day of school, so H was out bright and early to watch her get on the bus. Then I was off to work. He took D2 to get her signed up for the daycare I chose to start next week, and ended up calling and asking if I wanted him to come by my work with D2 to drop off the paper work. Of course this could have waited until evening so I take this as a positive. So they ended up dropping by, and we did and impromptu horseback ride with D2 on one of the mini horses at the stable. She had a ball. Then they left.
So I got a call at the end of the day asking if I just wanted to meet them out for dinner in town. Of course I did, so we ended up going out to dinner, then to Sonic to get the girls and icecream. Nice night.
So we got home, and I worked in my garden a bit ,the girls played, and H shot his bow a bit. N-O-R-M-A-L life. What is that again? Wish it would last.
But alas, the girls went to bed ,and H left. I should find out tomorrow whether or not I'll be "allowed" on the camping trip with them this weekend.
Honestly, it really sort of pissed me off today, the thought of having to WAIT for him to decide if I "could" go or not. So tonight I very calmly said.. "You know, why don't you just plan on taking the girls this weekend. I know you are having a hard time deciding ,so that probably means you'd really rather not. I want you guys to go and have fun. So I'm taking the stress of that off of you"
To which he said.... "the girls are going to have fun either way. Just wait and see, ok"
So again ,I feel like I was tossed a bone. I gave him the easy out, and he didn't take it. So honestly, if he comes back tomorrow and says "no you can't go" I think I'll be pissed since tonight he had the perfect out.
UGH. I just hate hate hate this.
Ok Chris........ calm down. Breathe. Each baby step is worth it. Now rinse, lather, repeat.
Chris
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
