Had some interesting issues to deal with today. I have been dealing with some urges to call W and ask questions, make comments etc. Really month one stuff. Nothing I acted on of course but it felt horrible. Then I was wondering just why I really want this woman. I know why...but it still doesn't help. So I go read and look at records that I've kept and really look at her patterns of infidelity. While my immediate level of stress went up after I turned it off I felt much better. It's very surreal.
The only urge I have left is born out of curiosity about how her new job went today. I pretty much decided to not ask.
Her birthday is in a month. I have to decide on that as well.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
