Supportive and Proud Weather She Likes it or Not!!

[JWS]

you guys are great. my real problem is all last week I was down and not really around here so I was not as strong as I could be.

by the way Lost. W and I are having dinner tomorrow, Wednesday is our anniversary, I used you line about if its our last one it should at least be fun. she laughed. I did have to add that I did not want it to be the last and she smiled at that too.


for my own sanity I have two lose lose ways of looking at yesterday.

she was at a girlfriends house pro- could be true con- I could be in denial

she was with him pro -could be the truth con- could be unfairly judging her and mistrusting.

I am going to show trust no matter what. I am going to be bold in my trust like it was bravery against and enemy on a battle field (or sky) and choose to accept her story. I could be turning a blind eye but I am giving her an opportunity to not damage that trust. if she does abuse it that is her action and her mistake not mine for trusting her, I need for my own health to truly learn and live that last part.