no expectations 9

[peacetoday]

Nothing really new here
R with H remains friendly
It always confuses me how these WAS want to keep up a friendship
but dont want anything more
I try not to read into it
but I still feel it
I feel attracted to H, and I sense and see him looking at me
yet he always remains distant and leaves to pursue his bachlorhood
I thought about asking H to hold D for a few months
but then I spoke with a close friends who reminded me I could be still waiting in 7 years if I keep holding on
I dont want to be in limbo anymore
I will stand in my own way
but I guess the D is a sign of closure and H wanted it
so I really have no control
just so baffling how a man can give it all up
especially when our spouses get to expwerience unconditional love from us and see us become loving, validaing, caring wives
peace