I'm okay. Parents were visiting so I haven't been online since last week. Too busy playing tour guide.
Not much from W since the evening of hugs. Big surprise. Now I'm trying to decide if I send her a closure letter. Should I? Part of me wants to say that I enjoyed our time together and know it'll be hard to find someone I connect with in as broad a range of interests, but that I also am upset that she shut down to a M that was as much hers as mine, and that it further saddens me that she's now offering advice to her sister to attend MC when she wouldn't do that herself - or at least she would but she lied during sessions and wouldn't do any follow up work.
But what am I trying to accomplish? To let her know how I feel? What's the point? I suppose I haven't thrown in the towel yet, which is bad. Somewhere in the back of my mind is the thought that if I write a letter she'll see what a great guy I am and start missing me.
I'm realizing that this is bullsh*t. I deserve better.
So, maybe I won't write a letter. Maybe I'll just let it all go. Stop answering the phone when she calls, stop the dinners, the conversations. Sure it's rude and she's trying to be nice, but f*ck it. I'd have preferred she be nice by working on our M, not having an affair and then ditching me.
