Repeat after me "I am not weak". You are none of those things that you listed. My friend, you love your husband, you are faithful, you long to be close to him. Of course you were with him. Of course.
But you have to judge how it makes you feel after the initial yummy contact. Does it hurt you? Does it make you feel used? Does it make you long for something that H cannot give you at this point? Does it satisfy you beyond the actual satisfaction (meaning, did you get everything you want. I never got the closeness/cuddling I so desparately needed).
You are amazing. You are a committed morally beautiful person. Don't let your H manipulate that part of you.
